Remembering a sad day...

22 years ago today my mother passed away. I hate that I can remember it like it was yesterday. My dad made this concrete slab for her when they were married. "Sam Loves Cindy". It's lasted over 40 years and I know their marriage would've had she still been alive to put up with my dad. I miss you mom more today than ever. Wish you were here.

Ninja!

This must be the year for new gadgets for me. I'm excited about my new Ninja blender. So far I've made smoothies, juice & a few slushy drinks. The ice crushing capability alone is worth it. Hopefully I'll be trying it out for dips and when it cools off, soups and dough for all kinds of bakery goods. :)
I'm embarking on juicing as part of a healthy diet and my blender along with my juicer is already helping me on that path. I think tonight I'll make some salsa and healthy guacamole! I can't wait! 

I Can See Clearly Now...

So, I did it. I went and purchased a new iMac...and OOOHHH how I LOVE it. I mean, it's true love. Capital L. More than love. Super love. I wasn't going to buy another one, but dad accidentally tripped over my laptop cord. The sequence of events was quite hilarious. Dad trips, knocks over a glass of water, saves the glass from breaking and saved his beer. LOL. The laptop crashed to the wood floor, but managed to avoid getting wet. I thought this must be a sign that I need a new computer now...not later. The techs were able to get the pieces of cable out of the laptop and download the data on to the new computer. I'm thankful for that. I still haven't decided what to do with the old laptop though. Maybe donate or send it back for recycling. I don't want to buy a new cord & battery since the OS on it is sooo outdated. It's not really worth it. Besides, why do I need a laptop when I have a smartphone? 

That's What Friends Are For

I've been fighting a nasty sinus infection for over a week now. I even broke down & went to the doctor for meds. It's slowly getting better, but I had been cooped up in my apartment for the holiday weekend going stir crazy. Thankfully I received a last minute text yesterday for a pool gathering. Nothing too exciting...just some snacks/BYOB, etc. I wasn't sure I would be up for it, but once I got there, it was like medicine to be around my friends. I got to see my friend's baby, Evelynn, who is a little over a year. She's such a ham & I love it. She isn't afraid to be around any of us & spent her time going back and forth between auntie Jena and uncle Doug since we were the first ones there. I enjoyed the time away from home. The weather was amazing today. Great friends really do a wonderful job of helping you forget you ever felt crummy in the first place.

Purple Rain

Today our division at work wore purple for peace. It's National Peace Day I guess. I didn't mind wearing purple. It's not my favorite color, but I went with it. I had another first for 2011...purple nail polish. I'm that girl who wears black or dark blue...or dark maroon/red if I'm feeling chipper. It feels good to wear a pretty color for once....maybe I'll do it again sometime...

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For...

Today I received a phone call about a job I had applied for in San Diego. At first I was excited because I've been so depressed about the 4 interview process to a "thanks but no thanks" answer. After talking to the person for a few minutes, I realized something that I hadn't noticed before. Living here and actually having a job is a liability. If I was already there with no job, they'd want to interview me. As soon as they hear that I don't live there and can't just jump on a plane or in a car to get to an instant interview, they send me the email that they decided not to continue with me for the process. So, what do I do? Do I just quit my job, pack up and move back like I did 14 years ago? Is that what it will take to get me back where I want to be? I'm more level headed now. I think things through and need a plan before doing something. Having a job before I go out there seems like the most logical thing to do, but maybe it isn't. 
I also feel like my biggest downfall is my ability to hold interest in a job. I get bored easily and lack patience for dealing with external customers of any kind. I've had many different types of positions in accounting, banking, and customer service. I do have a degree in early childhood education. So...where does that leave me? What I want to do is teach. What I don't have is my student teaching completed. I can't go 4 months without a paycheck to get it done either. Plan...I need a plan...or a suggestion of some sort...please...

I'm Walking On Sunshine

Reflecting on Mother's Day and what my mom went through with cancer really brings me down. She struggled for years through surgery, chemo and radiation. I don't know how she fought as long as she did, which brings me to little miss Ainslee. From the time I heard the news of her cancer, I kept thinking "not her", "not this family", "not again". She's 5...5! I can't imagine all she's been through. Well, I can but only because it's what my mom when through. There are many days when I wish I could trade my own life just so my mom could be alive. I know I can't do that so instead I will focus my positive energy on Ainslee. I have to say how thrilled I am that her cat scan showed no cancer. I cried when I saw Beth's text to all of us and again when I read the blog post today. Words cannot describe my relief for the family. Keep fighting little one because you fill us all with hope...and we all can use a little bit of that right now. Love you Herb Family! xoxoxo