Today wasn't a great Friday. I cried at work...again. I'm so tired of dealing with management who pleads the fifth when you confront them with an issue. They want their staff to be "open and honest 100% of the time", yet when you are, oh how you are drilled into the ground and made to feel like a piece of crap. I wish I had the strength of my friend Anne who has been able to avoid corporate America for some time now through her own businesses. I know I need a steady income, but I also know that I'm worth more than I'm being credit for. I'm glad I'm job hunting and I know I will end up in another corporate position, however knowing that I'll be away from my previous manager (who has only been a manager for a year) will no longer be trying to control me. She has a lot to learn about management and if she keeps moving up in the corporate ladder, I'll know it's not what you know, it's who you can step on to reach the top that really counts.
4/6/11
Here comes the rain again...and the emotions.
Rain! We don't see it very often here in Phoenix, but when we do it can be a spectacle. I love a good rain shower with thunder and lightning. Besides calming down the pollen in the air, which my allergies can't handle much more of...it's cleansing. I definitely needed it today. I've been stressed over so many things I can't control. It always brings a flood of emotion, no pun intended.
Yes, they always say, "control your controllables", whoever "they" are. I know they are right. It's not always easy to do so. I'm worried that the job I've been interviewing for won't come through, worried about my dad & his health, worried about my friend who's 5 year old daughter is fighting cancer, worried about Zoe (kitty) since she's now 13 and has been having health problems, worried that my niece & nephews don't know their aunt as well as they should, and worried that I'm not living my life to the fullest.
On the other hand, I'm very thankful that I still have my dad and brother's family in my life, thankful that I have friends in my life to worry about, thankful I have the opportunity to interview for a job, and thankful for my 4 legged, furry feline who has been in my life for 13 years.
So, rain I thank you today for helping me breathe a little better, think a little clearer, and sleep a little better with the cooler, cleaner air you have brought.
Yes, they always say, "control your controllables", whoever "they" are. I know they are right. It's not always easy to do so. I'm worried that the job I've been interviewing for won't come through, worried about my dad & his health, worried about my friend who's 5 year old daughter is fighting cancer, worried about Zoe (kitty) since she's now 13 and has been having health problems, worried that my niece & nephews don't know their aunt as well as they should, and worried that I'm not living my life to the fullest.
On the other hand, I'm very thankful that I still have my dad and brother's family in my life, thankful that I have friends in my life to worry about, thankful I have the opportunity to interview for a job, and thankful for my 4 legged, furry feline who has been in my life for 13 years.
So, rain I thank you today for helping me breathe a little better, think a little clearer, and sleep a little better with the cooler, cleaner air you have brought.
3/14/11
It's been over 2 long years and oh my...how things have changed. I really should write more often. Life just gets in the way. Single once more, working a new job and still California dreaming...Oh I've said it before and I'll say it again until it's true. I WILL move back to San Diego...where the surf is mellow and the boys...well...the boys are just perfect. I have set the gears in motion by altering my job search for San Diego. The temps have given me the get up and get out attitude I need. Besides, if I continue to eat like a surfer without surfing, I'll be in BIG trouble.
I'm happier with my life than I was 2 years ago. I realized that I settled for staying here in Arizona because I thought a man loved me...and he did, but not enough to move where I wanted to. I'm proud of myself for letting go of what I knew was not in anyone's best interest. It was hard because he had done no wrong...nor had I. It was just time for us to realize we had no future together. Zoe is still my favorite sidekick despite some scary visits to see Dr. Patty...very expensive ones at that. BUT, for the cost of my favorite, four-legged, furry feline...I wouldn't trade her for the world. Who says dogs are a man's best friend? Cats are just as entertaining...without the annoying bark or bite!
I'm happier with my life than I was 2 years ago. I realized that I settled for staying here in Arizona because I thought a man loved me...and he did, but not enough to move where I wanted to. I'm proud of myself for letting go of what I knew was not in anyone's best interest. It was hard because he had done no wrong...nor had I. It was just time for us to realize we had no future together. Zoe is still my favorite sidekick despite some scary visits to see Dr. Patty...very expensive ones at that. BUT, for the cost of my favorite, four-legged, furry feline...I wouldn't trade her for the world. Who says dogs are a man's best friend? Cats are just as entertaining...without the annoying bark or bite!
3/8/09
Catching up is hard to do.
Months have gone by and so much has occurred. December was filled with layoffs for Glenn, a gift-less Christmas and a hopeful ring in of the new year. January flew by with Glenn finding work at last, and me moving back to Chandler and a more affordable apartment. February brought me to the unemployment line and bed-ridden with a 2 week infection similar to strepp throat. I'm currently working a temp job that is supposed to be an 8 week assignment...I'm not holding my breath that the company will need me after that.
Learning to live day by day has been a challenge for me. My life has always consisted of planning ahead of time for most things. Every day is something new and cutting back on costs is a must at this point. Glenn has been a big help as I did my best to help him with expenses when he lost his job.
It's been nerve-wrecking and a trying time for Glenn and I. Hard times always bring confrontation in relationships. There's a part of me that just wants to pack my stuff and move to San Diego, but my rational side knows that this crashing economy isn't just here in Arizona. We've managed to stay together and have reached the 6 month mark although it feels like it's been much longer. For now, I'll keep my thoughts positive that I can return to San Diego soon.
Wishing everyone health and happiness at this rough time in our economy!
Love,
Jena
Learning to live day by day has been a challenge for me. My life has always consisted of planning ahead of time for most things. Every day is something new and cutting back on costs is a must at this point. Glenn has been a big help as I did my best to help him with expenses when he lost his job.
It's been nerve-wrecking and a trying time for Glenn and I. Hard times always bring confrontation in relationships. There's a part of me that just wants to pack my stuff and move to San Diego, but my rational side knows that this crashing economy isn't just here in Arizona. We've managed to stay together and have reached the 6 month mark although it feels like it's been much longer. For now, I'll keep my thoughts positive that I can return to San Diego soon.
Wishing everyone health and happiness at this rough time in our economy!
Love,
Jena
11/21/08
A sad day.
Today Glenn is attending a funeral for his friend Steve. Unfortunately, I can't attend due to work. Steve died Sunday afternoon outside of Parker. Their motorcycle group went on a ride to Parker for lunch and were on their way back when a truck pulled out in front of him. He didn't have time to react and hit the truck, flew 30 feet and landed in the middle of the road. He died on impact. Glenn was right behind him on his motorcycle. Had it been a few seconds after, it would have been Glenn. Steve left behind a wife and 2 young children, 4 and 12. His daughter's birthday was the day after the accident.
It's one of those things that makes you sit back and reassess your life in a big way. I realized that Glenn and I had been bickering a lot lately over trivial things that don't matter. Then I thought about the last time I had told him 'I love you'. It had been long enough where I couldn't remember. When he arrived to my apartment, he nearly collapsed and burst into tears over what had happened. He could barely talk. We just cried together and held each other close.
It has definitely changed the dynamics of our relationship. We hug more, say 'I love you' more and let the small stuff pass because it's just not worth it to argue.
We can be taken out of this world quicker than we think, so take a moment and cherish what love surrounds you!
Love you all!
Jena
It's one of those things that makes you sit back and reassess your life in a big way. I realized that Glenn and I had been bickering a lot lately over trivial things that don't matter. Then I thought about the last time I had told him 'I love you'. It had been long enough where I couldn't remember. When he arrived to my apartment, he nearly collapsed and burst into tears over what had happened. He could barely talk. We just cried together and held each other close.
It has definitely changed the dynamics of our relationship. We hug more, say 'I love you' more and let the small stuff pass because it's just not worth it to argue.
We can be taken out of this world quicker than we think, so take a moment and cherish what love surrounds you!
Love you all!
Jena
11/6/08
Victory
First off, let me start by saying I love all of my friends regardless of how they may have voted! I know it can be a touchy subject, but I do not look differently at those who vote opposite my views. I am very excited about the new changes to come and I hope that others can realize that change does not happen overnight. Please don't panic if your election choice didn't win. One man does not control the country. Besides, weren't we all taught to give the new kid at school a chance to prove himself?
Good luck Obama. I think you will do just fine with our country.
Good luck Obama. I think you will do just fine with our country.
11/4/08
Busy,Busy
There is so much going on right now between the elections, lay offs, and new jobs. I'm excited to see who will be our next president! I am sad however, about all the people I keep hearing about who are losing their jobs due to cutbacks in several companies. I was fortunate enough to have left my last job before they found out 46 people are getting laid off. I started a new job a few weeks ago and have been working a lot. I like it, but it's stressful.
The other good thing in my life is my boyfriend, Glenn. He's so amazing and I can't believe he is a part of my life. He has such a kind heart and fun spirit. We met back in May through our volleyball group and just started hanging out one night at a dinner gathering. We are pretty much inseparable at this point. He's from CA and wants to move back there too so we are planning that for the future....hopefully the next year or so.
Other than that, things are the same. Zoe is good. She loves Glenn and he loves her too.
Love and hugs.
Jena
The other good thing in my life is my boyfriend, Glenn. He's so amazing and I can't believe he is a part of my life. He has such a kind heart and fun spirit. We met back in May through our volleyball group and just started hanging out one night at a dinner gathering. We are pretty much inseparable at this point. He's from CA and wants to move back there too so we are planning that for the future....hopefully the next year or so.
Other than that, things are the same. Zoe is good. She loves Glenn and he loves her too.
Love and hugs.
Jena
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